Morning.
Morning!
The dreams are gone again. Memory is full of holes.
Mind the gap!
Do you know whose memory is the least contaminated?
A baby’s?
Maybe, but not what I was thinking.
?
A patient with amnesia.
?
They can't contaminate by remembering. It just comes.
And goes.
Right, a free flow.
Did you hear about the artist with face blindness?
To lose one face is enough. Imagine losing them all.
She made interesting self-portraits. She did them in the dark, feeling her face, adding paint to canvas; feeling again. Art as an act of looking, free of the presumption of sight.
Do goldfish really have only eight seconds of it?
Memory?
Yes, or is this just a myth told to children who would otherwise be very sad about the creature in the bowl, in the plastic bag from the fair, doomed to this constant back and forth?
Borges called it a pile of broken mirrors.
The fishbowl?
Memory.
He died on this day, in 1986.
That was the year I forgot how to fly in my dreams.
How?
The trick was to remember the state of dreaming. Then I had to flap really hard. My arms, because that's all I had, no wings or feathers.
Yeah, but how did you forget?
Whoever knows, but that year my dreams or something started taking me too hard and fast, I could not remember until it was too late.
Borges said there are no images at the end, only words.
Remember 1986?
There were bombs everywhere in the news. I didn't see them up close, but I worried.
They were waiting under parked cars, in office buildings, churches, synagogues, planes.
It was my first Communion year. I remember waiting to be suffused in light.
The Challenger exploded. I remember the plumes of flame and smoke on the screen. My second-grade teacher had wheeled the television into the classroom so we could see it live, the techno-miracle of space travel.
Chernobyl, too.
After that, radioactive deposits were found in every country in the northern hemisphere.
There was a human chain that year, five million links long from New York to Long Beach.
As a reminder, right?
Yes, of hunger. Homelessness. Easily forgotten by the housed and fed.
They were flooding the streets.
This was Reagan's America. It was popular to cite an epidemic of laziness, compounded by drugs, as the reason.
Just say No, but the hands did something else.
Said yes?
No, they answered another question. A better one. The question of the body before you.
Answer like an open hand.
Right. Like, "Here."
Do you remember Borges' Book of Imaginary Beings?
He observed that there are dragons in every part of the world.
Yeah, he said we don't know what they mean, only that they are always there.
What memories do they hold; what future projections?
I love his face, Borges. How it would light up when he smiled.
He must have been something in person.
Like a baby. Or a person who has forgotten everything and sees only––
Light?
The play of light and shadow.
An uninterrupted flow.
I love watching babies before their vision develops.
Their faces, do you mean?
Yeah, how they light up and start laughing at something in the ceiling.
And you watch them, and you wonder what are they seeing?
And why can't I?
We probably used to.
But I can't remember.
The dreams are gone again. Memory is full of holes.
Mind the gap!
A baby’s?
?
?
And goes.
Did you hear about the artist with face blindness?
She made interesting self-portraits. She did them in the dark, feeling her face, adding paint to canvas; feeling again. Art as an act of looking, free of the presumption of sight.
Memory?
Borges called it a pile of broken mirrors.
Memory.
That was the year I forgot how to fly in my dreams.
The trick was to remember the state of dreaming. Then I had to flap really hard. My arms, because that's all I had, no wings or feathers.
Whoever knows, but that year my dreams or something started taking me too hard and fast, I could not remember until it was too late.
Remember 1986?
They were waiting under parked cars, in office buildings, churches, synagogues, planes.
The Challenger exploded. I remember the plumes of flame and smoke on the screen. My second-grade teacher had wheeled the television into the classroom so we could see it live, the techno-miracle of space travel.
After that, radioactive deposits were found in every country in the northern hemisphere.
As a reminder, right?
They were flooding the streets.
Just say No, but the hands did something else.
No, they answered another question. A better one. The question of the body before you.
Right. Like, "Here."
He observed that there are dragons in every part of the world.
What memories do they hold; what future projections?
He must have been something in person.
Light?
An uninterrupted flow.
Their faces, do you mean?
And you watch them, and you wonder what are they seeing?
We probably used to.
* A story about artist known as Carlotta appears in the BBC News, and the documentary about her journey, “Lost in Face” appeared in a BBC News article by Vibeke Venema, “Prosopagnosia: The Artist in Search of Her Face,” published August 16, 2020. BBC World Service.
* "As the end approaches, there are no longer any images from memory––there are only words." Source: Jorge Luis Borges, Andrew Hurley (2004). “Aleph and other stories”, Penguin Classics
* Image: "Dragon" by Aqva on flickr under an Attribution-Non-Commercial 2.0 Generic license.
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